I'm back. I'm blogging again. I'm motivated to keep on this time. No more excuses. I had a barrel full of them the last two times.
Biggest excuse? I couldn't post good pictures because I didn't have a "fancy" camera.
Well, I can scratch that excuse off the list. I have a pretty good one now. It may not be the fanciest but its pretty cool.
So, what brought me here again?
Today was the last day of Summer break. Tomorrow my little one starts Pre-K 4, and in a little less than a month, she turns 5.
I should have listened to those words of wisdom. Time flies. Where did it go and why didn't I do more?
BACKSTORY:
I started out as a stay at home mom (SAHM) who slowly became a work as home mom (WAHM). I make cakes to order. My job consists of answering messages, online advertising M-W and baking/decorating Th-Sa.
It all started out good back in 2008. Slow and steady. Then, it got really busy....which was great. I was working non-stop day in and day out. Dealing with emails, PR, running business errands, or actually making treats. I barely spent time with Nati. I was aware of this but I needed to work.
When we were both home I would send her to my grandma's house. We share the same house and have adjoining rooms. I had to get my work done. That simple.
Then, one day, as I was flipping through Nati's Fisher Price digital camera, I came across a set of pictures. Keep in mind, all these pictures were taken from her point of view. Her toys, her books, self portraits, our dogs etc.
Then came that set. There, on her little purple camera, were about 4-5 pictures of me sitting at my desk, staring at a screen, hair in a messy bun and wearing pajamas. This is what she saw.
I remember that day. She was sitting on the dining room table, behind me, asking me to play picnic with her and her baby dolls.
I couldn't. I wouldn't. I was to busy. To busy to sit on the floor, sip imaginary lemonade, and have imaginary pizza with my 4 year old.
Talk about rude awakening.
Although, I changed a lot over the next few months, I still felt it wasn't enough. We had plenty of fun this summer, but that hindsight crept up on me, and now I wish I would have done more.
Today is a new day. Even though summer is over, I have a new school year, and all its adventures, to look forward to.
